parents are pushing me really hard
& giving me alot of stress
because of my shitty results this term.
i'm quite pissed at myself actually.
sometimes i wonder why aren't i as
smart as my siblings.
it puts alot of pressure on me
when they do so well in every aspect.

to them studies is priority.
but softball & studies are as impt to me.
due to the competitions,
i admit i have negleted my studies.
but the season's going to be over.
i'll definately work much harder
after everything is over.
i wanted to work hard to make it to JJC.
but seems like even if i do make it,
they might not even let me play softball.
cause they think i wont be able to cope.

i feel so emo now. bahhh.
i hate sec4 life, damnit. ):