there are like so many things going through
my head at this moment i dont even know where to start.

feeling quite awful at the moment.
i'm not exactly sure if awful is the right word.
just not a good feeling alright.

i totally regret my decision that day.
i feel like a total loser. damn.
why am i so stupid enough to be yr damn spare tyre.
after all the shit you've done to me,
i forgave you readily & treated you nicely.
just to be bloody used by you.

everytime you're bored or down,
you'll come looking for me.
& when you're all happy & occupied?
i dont even think you remember me.
ah damnit. you know how horrible i feel.
like stop ruining my life!

after everything cools down &
i'm feeling all better forgetting
every single thing in the past,
you'll come along & make me feel
terrible all over again.
do you know how freaking painful it is.

you're making it bloddy difficult for me to let go.