Be my escape

No EPL tonight to brighten my day, sadsad.
& I need to study ):

Yesterday, bel&Audrey came over to my place to cook yummy lunch(:
Had a simple cosy belated birthday celebration at my place.
They made yummy pasta + cambell's soup + scrambled egg + jelly.
The food was amazingly good! Yumyum(:
It was a little too much to finish though.
We still got alot of snacks to eat after lunch.
Chilled & watched dvds after that & ate more food. -.-
Mommy said we can eat alot. Hahahha.

Finally got back down to studying last night after they left.
Haven't been studying for a few days alr & i feel so damn guilty ):

I dont exactly want to get my results back cause i'm pretty sure i did badly.
Although there's improvement, but still, it ain't good enough.
With results like these, i really have no idea how i'm going to make the cut.
Actually i think i'm pretty used to such results. I'm so numb to it.
That's quite bad cause everyone else is worrying but i'm alright about it?
Sometimes its hard not to compare with others as much as you dont want to.
Yeah, its good to go at your own pace & hopefully the tortoise wins the race.
But its not easy to be stagnant while others are moving up quickly.
Aye, its hard to comprehend.

Okay, i've been really tired the past few days.
Late nights & early mornings.
I dont think i get enough sleep at all.
& its not because of studying that i'm up late.
I'm up late cause i'm staring at this thing i am staring at as i'm typing now.
& idk why, but i automatically wake up at an unearthly hour every morning.

So i really should be getting to sleep now/doing chemeconsmath.
But my hair's wet & i'm lazy to get the hairdryer & my brain chooses
not to function and do anymore work.
I think i did some substantial amount of work at unipath today,
but there's a whole lot more to do still. Urgh, its never ending ):

Down to 60+ days to A's. Scary.
Need to use the next week's holidays wisely.

Alrighty, stay happy everybody. (:
(Iknowitainteasy)