sometimes i really cant help thinking
how stupid and dumb i am.
its really depressing.
probably because i'm the dumbest in the family.
its not my fault okay.
its not like i dont want to be born smart.

i know my parents worry the most about me.
because i'm not as smart as them,
so i wont have a future as bright as them.
my mom even said once that if i continue like that,
i might just end up in ITE. thanks.
just imagine? brother, RJC. me, ITE?
words do hurt, real bad.
i'm trying alr. but its really difficult.

why am i born like that.
why arent i as smart as my siblings.
its really pressurising and i cant take it.

tell me who actually studies everyday now?
rarely any. i know i'm slower then the rest.
so i make an effort to study now.
1 and a half hours a day.
is that not enough?
come on! its still holidays after all.
no vcds, no going out.

i think i'll just die from the
pressure i'll get next year.
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