i've been thinking quite a lot lately.
about my direction in life
and what am i actually on earth for.
model ans is: i'm on earth to spread
the gospel so that more ppl will know God.
but am i really doing it?

will i really go to heaven?
i think judgement day is gonna be so scary.
i've done many things that doesnt make God happy.
although they are minor things,
but many minor things adds up to smth major.
you get what i mean?
i've been cheating in tests,
copying homework all the time,
lying quite often,
the list just goes on and on.

can you imagine looking at yr life
all over again in front of God?
how embarrasing that will be.

i think school plays quite an impt part.
like i'm not in a christian sch,
so i face more problems like,
i get more bad influence kinda thing.
not that my friends around me in sch
are bad influence or anything.
i'm just talking generally in new town.
all the vulgarities i hear everyday.
i mean i hear it so often,
somtimes i just accidentally splurt it out.

i wanna change.
i dont want to go back to sch
and start copying n cheating again.


create in me a clean heart, O God
and renew a right spirit within me.